Alone but not Alone

This feeling I have inside my head
It haunts my soul like if I was dead
I want you around but time is a limit
I can only see you when the time is perfect
It is so hard for me to tell you how I feel
I don't want you to run and make it a big deal
I don't care about it that much
But It does affect me a little
I wish I could see you when ever I want
If I tell you the truth you may up and go
So I keep inside and let nobody know
But I can't stand it much longer
Cause my heart aches for more
I wish I could tell you but I fear you will leave
And I don't want to loose you you mean so much to me
Please don't give up I'll do what I have to
I just want to be with you and I'll just have to wait
I understand what you need and understand what you want
I just wish we could be free from everyone.

Speaking Without Thought

I always have that feeling

That I wish I was someone else

I wish I didn't say that 

I wish I didn't do that

I can't think about

How many times I've said that

I never think before I speak 

I always think it will be funny

But to them it's not

It's nobody's fault

But my own

I wish I could be someone else

Then I wouldn't 

Have to worry about hurting you

The Most Nervous Moments are Sometimes the Best Feelings

My heart is racing

My palms are sweaty

We're both just sitting

Unsure about what is going to happen

But then we look

In each other's eyes

And then we realize

This is what we both want

What we both need

And at the moment

We've never been closer

It feels so good

It feels so right

I never want this moment to end

Suddenly all my stress is gone

And nothing else matters

My mind is blank

Not a thought in mind

Except the feeling of

I can't wait to do that again

A Loss isn't Always a Loss

I always sat back and waited for you

From the moment my eyes locked with yours

I knew that you were the one that I needed

I had one burden that sat on my chest

And once that burden was lifted 

I took my chance

I walked up to that beautiful girl 

And built up some courage to speak 

And I never wanted that moment to end

I thought to myself 

Of what life would be like

If I had this girl in my life

And finally I realized 

I wanted her forever 

I would do anything for her

And now at this time I have this girl 

And I wouldn't have it any other way

I love to call her mine 

And have her stand by my side

I never want to loose her

And I'll do what I can to never hurt her

I got this one lucky chance

And it's the only one I need 

Secret Feelings are Shattered Pieces

Can You please just fuck off
And leave us alone
Why do you seem to care so much
When it has nothing to do with you
All we want
Is to just relax and stay calm
But you make it impossible
With your childish games
Please grow the fuck up
And act your age
Your the only one
That makes it hard
For us to even be seen
In public places
No one else really cares
But you cant
Mind your own fucking business
Its not our fault
Your so alone and helpless
Please do the world a favor
And fall in a hole
And let the demons consume your soul
You dumb fuck face

Being Whats Best For Them

Have you ever woken up

And realized there is nothing

You hate what you don't have

You don't know where you fit in

You try to be like them

You try to impress them

But nothing works

And you know that the worst part

Is that it's not them

But it's you

And if you can't change

Then it will never change

The feeling of emptyness

And loneliness

Will only get stronger

If you can't adjust

To what they want

The Unreachable Imagination

I You are so near

But feel so far

I want you here

But my arms can't reach

An imaginary distance

I want to be with you everyday

But I have to pretend

That there is nothing there

It's so hard for me

To create an imaginary world

Where we have to exist as two

When I want to exist as one

I wish it was just us

Then this writing wouldn't have begun