Alone but not Alone

This feeling I have inside my head
It haunts my soul like if I was dead
I want you around but time is a limit
I can only see you when the time is perfect
It is so hard for me to tell you how I feel
I don't want you to run and make it a big deal
I don't care about it that much
But It does affect me a little
I wish I could see you when ever I want
If I tell you the truth you may up and go
So I keep inside and let nobody know
But I can't stand it much longer
Cause my heart aches for more
I wish I could tell you but I fear you will leave
And I don't want to loose you you mean so much to me
Please don't give up I'll do what I have to
I just want to be with you and I'll just have to wait
I understand what you need and understand what you want
I just wish we could be free from everyone.

Speaking Without Thought

I always have that feeling

That I wish I was someone else

I wish I didn't say that 

I wish I didn't do that

I can't think about

How many times I've said that

I never think before I speak 

I always think it will be funny

But to them it's not

It's nobody's fault

But my own

I wish I could be someone else

Then I wouldn't 

Have to worry about hurting you

The Most Nervous Moments are Sometimes the Best Feelings

My heart is racing

My palms are sweaty

We're both just sitting

Unsure about what is going to happen

But then we look

In each other's eyes

And then we realize

This is what we both want

What we both need

And at the moment

We've never been closer

It feels so good

It feels so right

I never want this moment to end

Suddenly all my stress is gone

And nothing else matters

My mind is blank

Not a thought in mind

Except the feeling of

I can't wait to do that again

A Loss isn't Always a Loss

I always sat back and waited for you

From the moment my eyes locked with yours

I knew that you were the one that I needed

I had one burden that sat on my chest

And once that burden was lifted 

I took my chance

I walked up to that beautiful girl 

And built up some courage to speak 

And I never wanted that moment to end

I thought to myself 

Of what life would be like

If I had this girl in my life

And finally I realized 

I wanted her forever 

I would do anything for her

And now at this time I have this girl 

And I wouldn't have it any other way

I love to call her mine 

And have her stand by my side

I never want to loose her

And I'll do what I can to never hurt her

I got this one lucky chance

And it's the only one I need 

Secret Feelings are Shattered Pieces

Can You please just fuck off
And leave us alone
Why do you seem to care so much
When it has nothing to do with you
All we want
Is to just relax and stay calm
But you make it impossible
With your childish games
Please grow the fuck up
And act your age
Your the only one
That makes it hard
For us to even be seen
In public places
No one else really cares
But you cant
Mind your own fucking business
Its not our fault
Your so alone and helpless
Please do the world a favor
And fall in a hole
And let the demons consume your soul
You dumb fuck face

Being Whats Best For Them

Have you ever woken up

And realized there is nothing

You hate what you don't have

You don't know where you fit in

You try to be like them

You try to impress them

But nothing works

And you know that the worst part

Is that it's not them

But it's you

And if you can't change

Then it will never change

The feeling of emptyness

And loneliness

Will only get stronger

If you can't adjust

To what they want

The Unreachable Imagination

I You are so near

But feel so far

I want you here

But my arms can't reach

An imaginary distance

I want to be with you everyday

But I have to pretend

That there is nothing there

It's so hard for me

To create an imaginary world

Where we have to exist as two

When I want to exist as one

I wish it was just us

Then this writing wouldn't have begun

One Last Breath

What doesn't kill you
Makes you wish you were dead
What doesn't destroy you
Leaves you broken again
Makes you wish
That you where home again
In a sea of depression
With weights on your ankles
There's no way out
Your lungs are collapsing
You just stop breathing
You reach out for something
But nothing is there
But with one last breath of hope
She reaches out and takes your hand
And suddenly
Everything is ok

Feeding the Demons

It comes in slowly
But hurts you quickly
You want it to leave
But it will sit and stay
Everything you try
Never seems to work
You think something can help
But nothing seems to save you
You cry for help
Beg for mercy
But it festers inside you
Like a termite eating away
At the foundation of a house
Waiting to come crashing down
On everything you live for
Everything you dream of
Seems so far away
You feel so empty
But your always filled
With sadness and hatred
When darkness and anger
Are knocking at your door

Taking Control

When your sad
I'm depressed
When your happy
I'm ecstatic
But I'm the reason
You feel those things
I can do nothing at all
And make you the happiest
Girl in the world
And I can make one mistake
And end it all
Time only tells
Where this will go
I hope I do nothing
So I don't have to worry
About making a mistake
To make the world
Crash down on us.

Misspoken Words

I make mistakes
But who can say they don't
Things I say
May make you sick to your stomach
I don't really mean them
I was just having fun
I went to far
And made you run
I never want to be
The guy who hurts you again
Makes you scream
And run for help
I want to be that help
That guides you through
All the tough times
And the worst times
I want to be
That shoulder you lean on
That shoulder you cry on
At times you cant believe
I want to tell you how much I care
But you won believe me
I don't know how
I can make up for it
I'm going to try
To win your trust
To make you feel good
To make you happy
I make mistakes
But who doesn't
Please believe me
And give me a chance
A chance to win you
And be that man.

Love At All Angles

In the world
Love can take a toll
On everything in your life
Vengeful and forgiving
Even at its worst
You can always feel it
Others may not see it
Until its time to say...

The Crazy, Awesome, Mess We Call Love

This thing we have
People may not agree
But I don't care
As long as its you and me

We say yes
But they say no
I  want to tell you how I feel
So here I go

Your something special
Nothing like the rest
When I am with you
It is the best

When I look at you
All I can see
Is the most beautiful thing
In the world to me

When we kiss
Time Stands still
Just to taste your lips
I would kill

Holding you up against me
In this crazy world we call home
Makes me feel like its just  us
Like we are all alone

Now I'll play the waiting game
And hope we can be together
I'll sit and watch time go by
Until I can call you mine forever.

I don;t need anyone else but you
You fit my life like a perfect glove
All of this is because of you
Your the one and only person I love